I sent out a Facebook S.O.S.
Dad, I feel like I’m constantly crippled by life. It’s like my heart or body or something is somehow connected to all these people. Jake’s mom is dying in the hospital. Diane, my church friend who helps me watch the kids, has a 23 year old niece dying of cancer. Life is nothing but a stream of grief and loss. And I’m always aware of it.
That was yesterday. Today Barb and Katie are with Jesus. Life goes on.
I don’t know how to do normal things like brush my teeth and make supper when things like this are always happening.
Why is this so hard? Why am I everyday needy and lost and incapable?
Depend upon the Holy Spirit, that’s why He was sent, to enable us to do things we would otherwise be unable to do and to give us peace in the midst of the chaos of a sin filled environment.
By the grace of God I do believe. Help first and foremost my chronic unbelief…
He is the downpayment and guarantee of so much that we have yet to experience, but He is more than enough to contend with whatever we encounter here.
There is peace. There is promise. I can do the next thing.
The next thing is always love.
Thank you, Dad.
But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to you.