church work

“preparing servant leaders for the church and world”

broke my heart

wrecked my family

stole my voice and

destroyed my life


Five minutes after posting this a pastor’s wife friend emailed and asked if I was processing (exactly why we’re friends). My one word reply was ‘yup’.

9 thoughts on “church work

  1. Reblogged this on Church Set Free and commented:
    Honest. Very honest. From someone who knows.


    (comments disabled here, as usual, so please pop over to Rebekah’s place and join the conversation, thank you)

  2. Sis, I tell you that you are in mine and Susie’s prayers. But even though the hurt might remain, I’d like to just share with you how the Lord Himself prepared me for ministry. I had always tried to serve where ever I felt the Holy Spirit leading. In August I will be 64 years old. I “surrendered” to the Lord about a month before my 17th birthday. I have been learning the right way to lead AND the wrong way, by being a part of ministries the Holy Spirit led me too because I volunteered for however He wanted to teach me. In all those decades, I can look back on 2, yes Sis, only two mentors who cared more for the people they were discipling than their egos or position in the leadership of their church.

    Sis Rebekah, all the other churches and a few differing denominations, my wife and I found leaders more interested in keeping their positions, more intent on numbers than true discipleship, not knowing the benefit of delegating, not interested in in-depth Bible teaching but rather in following the newest religious fad going about.

    But dearest Sister, we learned! We learned by applying what we witnessed first hand with the Scriptures, ALL the Scriptures and recognized that teaching can come in both ways, leaders who take a personal interest demonstrating the example of Godly discipleship and leaders who didn’t have a clue or care about anything but their own status. It is all a matter of recognizing WHO your real teacher is. The Holy Spirit is ALIVE in our hearts and bearing witness to our inner spirit. He is our guide, our counselor, our confident all the while pointing us to the examples given by Christ Jesus! He is our true teacher. It doesn’t always lessen the hurts from the personal assaults and actions, but the Lord does work with a pliable and soft heart. There have been many tears, many hurts over the years, but both Sue and I are stronger for it today and my ministry/service is stronger today because of how the Holy Spirit chose to train us.

    Remember that the student is not greater than the Teacher, or the servant greater than the Master. If Jesus chooses to go through what He did, can we truly expect anything less? The Apostle Paul said it this way in 2 Corinthians 4:17-18, “For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.”

    Paul may say “light affliction” and it brings no comfort when it seems our world is torn apart. But dearest Sister in Christ, His Spirit is doing a work in you that will make you stronger in ministry, wiser in the Spirit, and able to recognize what Paul is really speaking of is our short span of time (our light affliction) compared to ALL of eternity with the Lord, our Truest and most Faithful Mentor!!!

    We love you Sis with the Love of the Lord. We appreciate your gifts and your obedience in the Spirit to share with all of us, for we ALL grow through your sharing!

    John 14:27 “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” This is your promise from our Lord and Redeemer, Himself! God bless you richly Sister Rebekah and our hearts and prayers ARE with you!

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