tis the season

“…springing from the hope that is stored up for you in heaven…”
~Colossians 1:5~

We can hardly stand

the wait

“Please, Christmas”

Won’t be late


“and that you already heard about in the word of truth-
the gospel that has come to you.”
~Colossians 1:5-6~


after the one


There’s so much work to be done in a home.  If I were to wait to enjoy life until every dish was clean, every item of clothing washed and put away, every random belonging in its place, you get the idea, I’d never enjoy my life.  And that would be a great shame, because God has given me so many people, places, and things in my life to enjoy.

All that is but a walk in the park.  Housework isn’t what throws me off the most, it’s the part about being human alongside all the other humans.  There is joy to be found in the work of being human-and this has been my biggest work thus far–to find the joy.  Why I’ve had to look so hard, so long, so far, I don’t know.  Some of us are slower than others.

It’s hard to narrow down all the thoughts.  By the time I sit down to write, sometimes thoughts appear out of nowhere, barging their way to the front of the thought line.  “Wait a minute?  Where did you come from?”, I ask them.  “Why are you the ones to be talking first?”  You weren’t the ones waiting in line for hours and hours.  I yield.

This is what motherhood, and I suppose all of life, is proving to be.  You’ve got 33 percent personality.  We’re not all alike.  We’ve been given different gifts and temperments.  This is going to show up in how we live our day to day lives.  I’m not going to do things exactly the way she does things–and that’s more than just okay–it’s good.


Then you’ve got 33 percent other people’s  influence.  We don’t live in a bubble, thank goodness.  We need the influence, wisdom, stories, guidance, and differences of others to keep us balanced, fed, nourished, and growing.   In addition to our weaknesses, we offer up our strengths for the building up of the body.  We learn from each other.

Then you’ve got about 33 percent up in air, as in, this is the stuff of life that just happens.  This is where we learn that even though we can grow in grace and knowledge and wisdom and stature, even though we grow as people, as mothers, as wives, as friends, by no means are we in control of our lives, not really.  Eventually this brings us great comfort.

That leaves one percent unaccounted for.   I haven’t yet mentioned God in the equation, but it seems quite wrong, criminal even, to have only one percent left for the Holy One.  I suppose though, if you think about it, God comes first whether we put Him there or not.  It’s one of those mysterious ways of His– all these things adding up to make a life.


heaven and earth


If the day is fine, any walk will do; it all looks good.  Water in particular looks its best, reflecting the blue sky in the flat, and chopping it into graveled shallows and white chute and foam in the riffles.  On a dark day, or a hazy one, everything’s washed-out and lack-luster but the water.  It carries its own lights.  I set out for the railroad tracks, for the hill the flocks fly over, for the woods where the white mare lives.  But I go to the water.

~Annie Dillard, Pilgrim at Tinker Creek~


the offering song

The last two hours are always the longest.   

It’s uncomfortable to sit with the restlessness sometimes.  My soul shuffles and squirms, seeking to lessen the numbing effects, the radical change in the inability to move.  Even then, just admitting my restlessness, somehow this stills me.  Somehow He meets me.

Here in this place I am thankful again.  I can hear the organ lighting the way.  First I hear, and then I sing along. What shall I render to the LORD for all His benefits to me?  I will offer the sacrifice of thanksgiving and will call on the name of the LORD…Somehow He moves me.

My lips again can kiss the Son.


I will pay my vows to the LORD now in the presence of all His people, in the courts of the LORD’s house, in the midst of you O Jerusalem.”

tree of life

“And you have done worse than your fathers, for behold, each one follows the dictates of his own evil heart, so that no one listens to me.”
~Jeremiah 16:12, NKJV~

What Would Jesus Do?  I ask the question like I’ve got to figure it out for myself, and thus, am left with even more questions.  What would Jesus do?  I can look in the Gospels and find lots of stories from the life of Jesus.  But that was then.  This is now. How in the world could I ever be certain what the Son of God might possibly do?  I can only be sure of what He already did.

What Did Jesus Say?  This is the new question.  This is the question to guide all our days.  Love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your soul and all your mind, this is the the first and greatest commandment. The second is like it, you shall love your neighbor as yourself.  What the world needs now is not the openness to hear our neighbor, not first and foremost.

What did Jesus say?  There’s only one way to the Father and there’s only one way to the freeing truth.  “Abide in Me, and I in you.  As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.  I am the vine, you are the branches.  He who abides in me, and I in him, bears much fruit, for without Me you can do nothing.”